Wednesday, October 28, 2009

MONSTER IN MOSSELBAAI


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  1. AnonymousFebruary 4, 2010 at 11:48 AM

    Hey
    In my mind i know that you will never read this, but i just needed to feel like i..i don't know what. But i'm wondering right now if i'll ever know what it's like to sleep on a pillow that's not moistened by the neverending flow of tears ever again...if it will ever happen that when i see someone resembling you my heart will not soar in the hope that it's really you...if i'll ever be able to forgive myself for not having gone for drinks with you the Saturday night we last spoke, if i'd known that that was going to be our last conversation i would have told you how much your love had changed me, how much i loved you but my fear of being hurt is what created that distance you sometimes noticed and i was too stubborn to admit...perhaps if i had given of myself completely as you had to me we'd be together right now, i would have told you how happy you made me, and how that other thing we always argued about didn't matter and that i'd stop waking you up early in the morning just because i couldn't sleep cause i knew how much it annoyed you. There is so much i wanted to say to you, so much we wanted to do together and i just don't know how to accept that i'm not going to get that opportunity in this lifetime. Please forgive me for not being there for you. Maybe then i can start to forgive myself. Love you always. Hey i'm sure you've met my dad, already! you guys will enjoy each other's company! and please don't tell him about that thing okay! I miss you terribly and everyday i wish i could go back and just hold you one more time, just to feel your arm around me again, hear your voice and laughter. I'm so so sorry I wasn't the person you could call on, i should have been.

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